Afraid of Commitment?

You know, I constantly have to fight against the fear I have of doing too much…of over-committing myself.  I’m afraid that if I take on one more thing, that will be the straw that breaks my back.  Can any of you relate to that?

I believe that that’s a tool the devil uses to stop God’s children from really working against evil. If enough good people are too timid and too afraid to go that extra mile, to give themselves away and we content ourselves with filling up our lives with spiritual exercises…you know, going to church and Bible studies…which are all good, but if we fill up all our time with that, and we don’t leave any room to actually do the work that God is calling us to do as his followers, then that plays right into the devil’s hands.  Then we have a bunch of good and holy people, sitting in churches, praising God while the rest of the world outside of our churches are in such desperate need, while we are too busy inside our churches to go out into the world to bring his goodness and his light and truth to those who are starving for it. 

Now I am not saying that I can go out on my own strength.  If I am maxed out and I feel that I just cannot fit one more thing into my life…and I just go ahead and commit to doing one more thing on my own strength…that won’t work.  I will collapse.  I’m to do this in his power, in his strength, trusting in him.  And as long as I make prayer a daily priority, as long as that’s my foundation, then whatever I commit to do, after that, on top of that, then God will give me the strength to do it. 

When I feel that I just can’t do anymore, what really endears me to God…to his most beautiful, sacred heart, is when I am afraid to take that next step, but I do it anyway.  Not in my own strength, but I do it leaning in to Him.  Leaning into His strength, trusting in Him.  Saying, “Jesus, I’m afraid to do this, I’m afraid this is too much, I’m afraid I’m going to fall, but I’m going to do it anyway, knowing that you’re in control, you’re in charge of me.  And if it is too much for me, and if I do fall, I’m going to fall pleasing you, and you’re going to pick me up, and you’re going to dust me off, and I’m going to be stronger for the effort.  And I’m going to be closer to you, for that effort that I put out there for you.” 

When I do this, I can never lose.  When I take that next step, when I don’t think I can do it, I do it anyway, in the strength of Christ, I can never fail.  He always uses it for good…for my good and for the good of others.

So I encourage you, if you’re afraid to sign up to come to the vigil, if you feel that you just can’t do any more in your life…as long as you’re putting Christ first every day in prayer, Bible reading and worship or Mass, then you don’t need to fear.  Go ahead, sign up, make that commitment.  I’m not telling you that just because I’m trying to fill up the vigil  hours, which I am…I’m telling you that for your own good…for our own good as the Body of Christ!  You know, Jesus tells us that if we try to hold onto our lives, that we will lose them, it’s when we give our lives away that we find true life.  And he doesn’t lead us astray.  He tells us this because he knows we’re afraid.  We’re afraid of giving away too much.  We’re afraid of being empty if we give away that last bit of energy that we have.  And… That’s the devil’s lie.  The more that we give away of ourselves…the more that he fills us with His strength and his power.  And once we do it, and we taste it for ourselves and we see it, then we want to do it more because we know that it’s true!  But we have to do it that first time!  We have to take that step in fear and trusting in God, and doing it anyway.  Do that, and I promise you, you will not be sorry.

Here are the times that we most need help during this fall campaign (which runs from September 25th – November 3rd:

  • EVERY SATURDAY 5-7 pm!
  • (1) Wednesday 9-11 am (Oct. 23)
  • (2) Tuesdays 12-1 pm (Oct. 8 & Oct. 29)
  • (3) Fridays 3 – 5 pm (Sept. 27, Oct. 25 & Nov. 1)
  • (2) Saturdays 3 – 5 pm (Oct. 26 & Nov. 2)

Of course if you cannot come during any of these times, we still need extra coverage ANY time from 7 am to 7 pm EVERY DAY from September 25th through November 3rd! Sign up when you can or just show up! We need to show the world, God and ourselves that WE CARE about the sanctity of each and every human life…and THIS MATTERS TO US!!!

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One thought on “Afraid of Commitment?

  • September 7, 2019 at 8:49 am

    So beautifully said, Nikki. Thank you so much for your faith and encouragement. God bless you, and God bless us all.


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