Have you ever woken up at 5am and thought to yourself,”Gee, I really don’t want to sleep any longer…this bed is just too cozy and warm! I KNOW! I think I would like to go to the local abortion clinic and pray!”
No? You mean to tell me that this has never happened to you? I am shocked!
Of course I am kidding. No one in their right mind ever WANTS to watch defenseless babies being marched into Planned Parenthood to face a painful and cruel death by abortion. But many of us do it anyway. Why? Because God wants us to be there…to pray…to witness…to be an advocate for the helpless babies and the vulnerable mothers.
So, how does God get us to do hard things…things that our nature naturally rebels against? It’s simple…he breaks our hearts. He causes so much pain that we are willing to do ANYTHING…even if it is hard…to bring relief from the pain. I am speaking from experience when I say this. You see, He broke my heart over abortion in 2009. It happened out of the blue. I had never been involved in any sort of pro-life activity…EVER! I never even knew anyone who had! But, when I heard about 40 Days for Life, and I began to follow the national blog and read the stories from the vigils that were going on all across our nation…my heart began to break. I found myself sobbing…actually wailing at times. As I researched and learned more about what abortion really is, and what it does to a baby…to the mothers, fathers and families…and what it has done to our nation…I was changed forever. Once God opens your eyes to a horror like abortion, there is no going back to your old life. It is almost like being born again. I cried every day for a good six months. I began to get involved in pro life activities and read and learned more about abortion. My every thought was filtered through a constant awareness of abortion. When I watched the nightly news, and the newscaster announced how many people were murdered on that day in our nation, I wanted to shout, “That is wrong…add another 3,000 to that number!” When my pastor announced that our church would be filling backpacks to help children get ready for school, I thought, “That’s nice, but what are we doing for the children that are being killed each day right here in our city?”
The most difficult part of this time period was my sense of being alone in my awareness of this tragedy. It seemed like the rest of the world was going on as usual…and that no one really cared. As I began to witness at Planned Parenthood on my own, I gradually met others who felt the way I did. When I began to lead 40 Days for Life, God blessed me by surrounding me with wonderful brothers and sisters who helped to build this great program and network of participating churches that we now have here in Pittsburgh!
When I think back to the huge task that was before me when I set out to compile a list of churches to contact and individuals to recruit…and I remember the energy and all consuming focus I had while calling and emailing pastors for eight hours a day, 5 days a week for months at a time…I am amazed that I was able to do it! I know I couldn’t do it now! I have an analogy that I think explains how God works when He wants to call someone to do something difficult: A few years ago, I had a splinter under my fingernail. It was embedded far underneath my nail bed and was very painful. My finger tip got red and it hurt to even touch anything with that finger. It cause me so much pain, that it was difficult to work. I knew I had to get that splinter out and pour peroxide on the open wound in order for it to heal. It was intensely painful, but I got a needle, sterilized it, and began to dig under my fingernail until I got to the splinter and removed it. I would have NEVER done something like that if the pain of that splinter didn’t prompt me to it. That pain gave me the incentive to do something that was very difficult. That is how God gets us to fight this difficult and painful battle to end abortion. He has to make “doing nothing” so painful, that we are willing to “do something” that will eventually make the pain go away.
Thank you for joining our 40 Days for Life family in Pittsburgh! If you have gotten up your courage to join us on the sidewalk…gotten out of your cozy and warm bed when you really didn’t want to…taking time out of your busy day to witness to the sanctity of human life…I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. We are not alone. We have each other, and we are building a loving network of Christian unity throughout the Church here in Pittsburgh! It is a net that is being spread by the Holy Spirit, in which He is catching many souls and also saving the lives of precious children!
I hope you will join us this fall, from September 24th though November 2nd! Churches are already starting to schedule their times at the vigil! Go to https://40daysforlifepittsburgh.com/church-vigil-schedule/ to see which times are available and contact me to add your church or group to our vigil schedule!
May God bless you!
Your sister in Christ,